“He looks like a skinned rabbit with a puckered-up old-man’s face.”
“You must go out,” the nurse said. “Madame Henry must not talk.”
“I’ll be outside,” I said.
“Go and get something to eat.”
“No. I’ll be outside.” I kissed Catherine. She was very gray and weak and tired.
“May I speak to you?” I said to the nurse. She came out in the hall with me. I walked a little way down the hall.
““What’s the matter with the baby?” I asked.
“Didn’t you know?”
“No.”
“He wasn’t alive.”
“He was dead?”
“They couldn’t start him breathing. The cord was caught around his neck or something.”
“So he’s dead.”
“Yes. It’s such a shame. He was such a fine big boy. I thought you knew.”
“No,” I said. “You better go back in with Madame.”
I sat down on the chair in front of a table where there were nurses’ reports hung on clips at the side and looked out of the window. I could see nothing but the dark and the rain falling across the light from the window. So that was it. The baby was dead. That was why the doctor looked so tired. But why had they acted the way they did in the room with him? They supposed he would come around and start breathing probably. I had no religion but I knew he ought to have been baptized. But what if he never breathed at
