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proposed to give? This was a vexatious question to me, who had not (illegible text) to buy me a dinner. I said I had not determined that yet; and sneaked off towards my lodging cursing my (illegible text) all the way inveighing against the barbarity of my grandfather and the avarice of my relations, who left me a prey to contempt and indigence. Full of these disagreeable reflections, I arrived at the house where I lodged and recounted to Strap who had been to see me. the particulars of my success; and as neither of us had dined, he went down stairs and brought up a quart of milk, with a penny brick, on which we made a comfortable meal. He then shared his money (eighteen pence) and left me.
He was no sooner gone, than I began to consider my situation with great uneasiness and revolved all the enemies my imagination could suggest, and not to live at the expence of a barber's boy. My pride took the alarm and having no hope of succeeding at the Navy-office I came to the resolution of enlisting in the Foot-guards next day. This extravagant design by flattering myself gave great satisfaction and I was charging the enemy at the head of my own regiment, when
