be imagined, often telling him there was nothing else in the world that I could deny him, and showing him all the respect, and upon all occasions treating him with intimacy and freedom, as if he had been my brother.
He tried all the ways imaginable to bring his design to pass, but I was inflexible. At last he thought of a way which, he flattered himself, would not fail; nor would he have been mistaken, perhaps, in any other woman in the world but me. This was, to try if he could take me at an advantage, and get to bed to me, and then, as was most rational to think, I should willingly enough marry him afterwards.
We were so intimate together that nothing but man and wife could, or at least ought, to be more; but still our freedoms kept within the bounds of modesty and decency. But one evening, above all the rest, we were very merry, and I fancied he pushed the mirth to watch for his advantage, and I resolved that I would at least feign to be as merry as he; and that, in short, if he offered anything he should have his will easily enough.
About one o'clock in the morning (for so long we sat up together), I said, 'Come, 'tis one o'clock; I must go to bed.' 'Well', says he, 'I'll go with you.' 'No, no', says I; 'go to your own chamber.' He said he would go to bed with me. 'Nay', says I, 'if you will, I don't know what to say; if I can't help it, you must.' However, I got from him, left him, and went into my chamber, but did not shut the door, and, as he could easily see that I was undressing myself, he steps to his own room, which was but on the same floor, and in a few minutes undresses himself also, and returns to my door in his gown and slippers.
I thought he had been gone indeed, and so that he had been in jest; and, by the way, thought either he had no mind to the thing, or that he never intended it; so I shut my door, that is, latched it, for I seldom locked or bolted it, and went to bed. I had not been in bed a minute but he comes in his gown to the door, and opens it a little way, but not enough to come in or look in, and says softly, 'What! are you really gone to bed?' 'Yes, yes' says I; 'get you gone.' 'No, indeed', says he, 'I shall not be gone; you gave me leave before to come to bed, and you shan't say "Get you gone" now.' So he comes into my room, and then turns about and fastens the door, and immediately comes to the bedside to me. I pretended to scold and struggle, and bid him begone with more warmth than before; but it was all one; he had not a rag of clothes on but his gown, and slippers, and shirt, so he throws off his gown, and throws open the bed, and came in at once.
I made a seeming resistance, but it was no more, indeed; for, as above, I resolved from the beginning he should lie with me if he would, and, for the rest, I left it to come after.
Well, he lay with me that night, and the two next, and very merry we were all the three days between; but the third night he began to be a little more grave. 'Now, my dear', says he, 'though I have pushed this matter farther than ever I intended, or than I believe you expected from me, who never made any pretences to you but what were very honest, yet to heal it all up, and let you see how sincerely I meant at first, and how honest I will ever be to you, I am ready to marry you still, and desire you to let it done to-morrow morning; and I will give you the same fair conditions of marriage as I would have done before.'
This, it must be owned, was a testimony that he was very honest, and that he loved me sincerely; but I construed it quite another way, namely,
