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gain, millions and millions of people without end.
It had become clear that, even if it succeeded one day in concluding an artitficial agreement which would permit of its members putting their signatures simultaneously at the bottom of another valueless „scrap of paper“, the „Peace Conference“ was and could not help becoming more and more incapable of meriting its name, of giving to the world the promised peace, precisely because it was condemned to remain an ever greater stranger to the interests and the will of the people in the name of which it pretended to speak.
Profoundly dejected and wounded by contact with this hideous truth, I began to understand, for the first time, the meaning of Bolshevism, that all the Governments of Europe were execrating and wished to destroy. At a moment when all was crumbling around me, when everywhere only nihility was to be seen, I perceived, its luminous star, coming from the horizon of the Future, rising in the sky.
Until then, groping blindly, feeling my way as my instinct guided me, under the blows, so to speak, under the shock oi circumstances, I had been led to understand the Workers' and Peasants' Government of Russia Exclusively from the Russian point of view,—led to understand as something that was not artificial, that had been invented by German Imperialism but, on the contrary, as something that appeared to be the only real force at that time existant in Russia, alone capable of effecting the territorial and moral re-grouping of the country, alone capable of saving Russia
