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Against that time, if ever that time come,
When I shall see thee frown on my defects,
When as thy love hath cast his utmost sum,
Call'd to that audit by advis'd respects; 4
Against that time when thou shalt strangely pass,
And scarcely greet me with that sun, thine eye,
When love, converted from the thing it was,
Shall reasons find of settled gravity; 8
Against that time do I ensconce me here
Within the knowledge of mine own desert,
And this my hand against myself uprear,
To guard the lawful reasons on thy part: 12
To leave poor me thou hast the strength of laws,
Since why to love I can allege no cause.
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How heavy do I journey on the way,
When what I seek, my weary travel's end,
Doth teach that ease and that repose to say,
'Thus far the miles are measur'd from thy friend!' 4
The beast that bears me, tired with my woe,
Plods dully on, to bear that weight in me,
As if by some instinct the wretch did know
His rider lov'd not speed, being made from thee: 8
The bloody spur cannot provoke him on
That sometimes anger thrusts into his hide,
Which heavily he answers with a groan
More sharp to me than spurring to his side; 12
For that same groan doth put this in my mind:
My grief lies onward, and my joy behind.
1 Against: in expectation of
3 When as: when
cast his utmost sum: added every item
4 advis'd respects: careful considerations
5 strangely: like a stranger
8 of settled gravity: for a grave demeanor
11 uprear: raise (as a witness taking the oath)
8 being made: if directed
