anxieties of duty, and retrospection was forced upon her, could only say, or think, "when my dear father was alive,"—that was her land mark! The duties incident to her new position; the exertion which children require, and which is perpetual, though parents are the only persons who do not feel it to be so; the exercise, the necessity for amusing and instructing the young, the high-spirited, and the active; these added to the change of repose for inquietude, of being the one cared for, to the having to care for others; the entire loneliness of spirit, all combined to make her worse, to crush utterly the already bruised reed.
Lucy was fully sensible of the consoling power—the great pleasure of being useful; and her mind was both practically and theoretically Christian; so, she never yielded to fretfulness or impatience; she knew that, through all her trials—through her waking hours of pain, through the weary time of total incapacity for the fulfilment of her duties—God was with her, was her stay, was her support; was trying her, as pure gold is tried in the fire; would sustain her in spirit unto the end: she knew all this, she never doubted, but she suffered; her heart fluttered like an imprisoned bird, as she toiled and panted up the high stairs, while the children laughed and sported, with the spirit and energy of health, and called to her to 'come faster.' Night brought rest without refreshment; she could not sleep; and, stifling her cough, lest she should disturb others, she would look up to the starry sky, often repeating—
"Oh! that I had wings like a dove;"
but hardly had she so prayed, when a sense of her own unworthiness, of the duty of watching and waiting for God's appointed time, would come upon her, and she would add, "Not my will, but Thine be done." No one was cruel, no one even unkind to her; the cross cook (all good cooks are cross), would often make her lemonade, or reserve something she thought the young girl might eat; the lady's-maid, who had regarded her, at first, as a rival beauty, won by her cheerful patience, said, that even when her eyes were full of tears, there was a smile upon her lip; all the servants felt for her; and, at length, her mistress requested her own physician to see what was the matter with "poor Joyce."
There are exceptions, no doubt; but, taken as a body, medical men—God bless them for so being!—are the very souls of kindness and generous humanity; how many have I known whose voices were as music in a sick chamber; who, instead of taking, gave; ever ready to alleviate and to sustain.
"Have you no friends?" he inquired.
"None, sir," she replied; "at least none to support me; and," she added, "I know I am unable to remain here." While she said this, she looked with her blue, truthful, earnest eyes, into his face; then paused, hoping, without knowing what