she had never felt alone before. That was why she had wept.
And now, throwing back her head wearily, she sighed: “Oh, I’m so worthless.”
xlvi
THAT evening Walter came back to the bungalow a little earlier than usual. Kitty was lying on the long chair by the open window. It was nearly dark.
“Don’t you want a lamp?” he asked.
“They’ll bring it when dinner is ready.”
He talked to her always quite casually, of trifling things, as though they were friendly acquaintances, and there was never anything in his manner to suggest that he harboured malice in his heart. He never met her eyes and he never smiled. He was scrupulously polite.
“Walter, what do you propose we should do if we get through the epidemic?” she asked.
He waited for a moment before answering. She could not see his face.
“I haven’t thought.”
In the old days she said carelessly whatever came into her head; it never occurred to her to think before she spoke; but now she was afraid of him; she felt her lips tremble and her heart beat painfully.
“I went to the convent this afternoon.”
“So I heard.”
