A MODERN UTOPIA
"What do I want with a double? Double! What do I care if things have been different here? This———"
He thrusts me weakly back with his long white hand. "My God!" he says almost forcibly, "what nonsense all this is! All these dreams! All Utopias! There she is—! Oh, but I have dreamt of her! And now———"
A sob catches him. I am really frightened by this time. I still try to keep between him and these Utopians, and to hide his gestures from them.
"It's different here," I persist. "It's different here. The emotion you feel has no place in it. It's a scar from the earth—the sore scar of your past———"
"And what are we all but scars? What is life but a scarring? It's you—you who don't understand! Of course we are covered with scars, we live to be scarred, we are scars! We are the scars of the past! These dreams, these childish dreams———!"
He does not need to finish his sentence, he waves an unteachable destructive arm.
My Utopia rocks about me.
For a moment the vision of that great courtyard hangs real. There the Utopians live real about me, going to and fro, and the great archway blazes with sunlight from the green gardens by the riverside. The man who is one of the samurai, and his lady, whom the botanist loved on earth, pass out of sight behind the marble flower-set Triton that spouts coolness in the middle of the place. For a moment I see two working men in green tunics sitting on a marble seat in the shadow of the colonnade, and a sweet little silver-haired old lady, clad all in violet, and carrying
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