opportunity to have returned; but now I desire a better country, that is, a heavenly one.
Pru. Do you not yet bear away with you in your thoughts some of the things that you did in the former time?
Chris. Yes, but greatly against my will; especially my inward and sinful thoughts, with which all my countrymen, as well as myself, were delighted. But now all those things are my grief; and, might I but choose mine own things, I would choose never to think of those things more; but when I would be doing that which is best, that which is worst is with me.
Pru. Do you not find sometimes as if those things were overcome, which at other times are your trouble?
Chris. Yes, but that is but seldom; but they are to me golden hours in which such things happen to me.
Pru. Can you remember by what means you find your annoyances, at times, as if they were overcome?
Chris. Yes; when I think what I saw at the cross, that will do it; and when I look upon my broidered coat, that will do it; also when I look into the roll that I carry in my bosom, that will do it; and when my thoughts wax warm about whither I am going, that will do it.
Pru. And what makes you so desirous to go to Mount Zion?
Chris. Why, there I hope to see Him alive that