Poems (Cook)/Not as I used to do

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4454235Poems — Not as I used to doEliza Cook
NOT AS I USED TO DO.
I look on the chestnut blossom
As it points to the cloudless sky;
On the daisy's golden bosom,
And the hyacinth's deep blue eye.
I see the lime tree flinging
Its delicate green arms out;
The fragrant jasmine clinging,
And the woodbine running about.
The lilac hiding the paling
With clusters of purple and white;
And the graceful laburnum trailing
Its tresses of radiant light.
But for me the garlanded bowers
Have lost their rainbow hue;
I look on the fields and flowers,
But not as I used to do.

I hear the bird-boy's rattle
Chime in with the cawing rook;
I hear the low of the cattle,
And the plash of the rippling brook:
I hear the shepherd singing,
And the bleat of the sportive lamb;
I hear the loud flail swinging,
And the barn-door's creaking slam.
I hear the swallows darting
Like arrows, in chase of the fly;
And the tawny leveret starting,
At play in the copse just by.
I hear the broad flags quiver,
Where the wind and tide rush through;
I listen to mill-wheel and river,
But not as I used to do.

I hear the blackbird telling
His love-tale to his mate;
And the merry skylark swelling
The choir at "heaven's gate."
The cuckoo, away in the thicket,
Is giving his two old notes;
And the pet doves hung by the wicket,
Are talking with ruffled throats.
The honey-bee hums as he lingers
Where shadows of clover-heads fall;
And the wind, with leaf-tipp'd fingers,
Is playing in concert with all.
I know the music that gushes
Is melody, sweet and true;
And I listen to zephyrs and thrushes,
But not as I used to do.

No more can my footsteps wander
Through woodlands, loved and dear;
I gaze on the hill-tops yonder
Through the mist of a hopeless tear.
My spirit is worn and weary
With waiting for health and rest;
My long, long night is dreary,
And my summer day unblest.
My suffering darkens the moonlight,
My anguish embitters the balm;
My loneliness weeps in the moonlight,
And sighs in the evening calm.
Oh that suffering's mournful story,
Must be wofully long and true;
When it finds me noting God's glory,
But not as I used to do.