The President's Daughter (Britton)/Chapter 42
No sooner was I upon my feet than I was nervous and anxious to get to Chicago to my sister Elizabeth. The superb strength which had been mine before the baby came had completely left me. My appetite was forced, my cheeks were pale, and constant letters from my mother as to when I was coming West worried me terribly.
Several mornings after the baby was born Dr. Ackerman came to see me. He sat on a straight chair at the foot of the bed and took out a notebook. I was amazed at myself for becoming frightened, but somehow my nerves were shattered and things troubled me which amounted to nothing at all. He informed me that he needed certain data for registering the child's birth. I didn't know exactly what that might mean to Mr. Harding, and so I inquired if it was necessary to register a child's birth always. "Unless you want to pay a fine of $100," he replied in his business-like voice. He said he merely wished to know my maiden name, my husband's, and our ages, my husband's business, etc. I thought quickly about whether I ought to tell him at least the partial truth—that I was not married! I didn't know whether or not it was a criminal offense to say you were married when you were not. I longed to shout the whole truth to the world, that my baby was Warren Harding's baby, that we were not married in the eyes of the world, but truly married in the sight of God, and that I was proud, proud, proud to be her mother!
Within, I was growing hysterical in those brief moments, but controlled my voice as I told him that my age was twenty-three, my husband's thirty-two, his business was an officership as Lieutenant in the U. S. Army, and that my name before I was married was "Nanna Eloise Britton." I said this I thought very clearly, but when he repeated it he said "Emma Eloise Britton?" I nodded. The first name did not matter anyway, I thought, but I wanted my surname to go into the records in the only right way—Britton. I could not give her the name Harding without betraying my darling, but I could give Britton. "Eloise" was a middle name I had adopted when a child in substitution for my real name of "Popham," which was always so objectionable to me. I have postcards from my father which he addressed to me "Nanna Popham Eloise Evelyn Britton," the full name I cherished as an ideal combination when a child!
When I had been out of bed about a week, one morning a man called. I heard Mrs. Tonnesen say, "Yes, Mrs. Christian lives here." I was abnormally apprehensive those days, an inexplicable nervousness seizing me when the least little thing went wrong, and I called downstairs quickly, "What do you want of Mrs. Christian?" I sat down on the top step of the stairs. He called up to me, "What's your baby's name?" Immediately I thought maybe something was wrong. They wanted to take her away from me! The most absurd possibilities danced like demons in my mind. "Who wants to know?" I asked, almost quivering. "Gotta have it for record," he replied, in what seemed to me a surly voice. I breathed a great sigh. "Oh, I see! Well, I haven't named her yet!" I said. "What! Two weeks or more old, and you haven't named her?" he shouted. I became frightened again. Maybe this was an offense under the law! "Oh, that's all right," I said timidly, "you may register her as 'Elizabeth Ann!'" Only that morning I had had a letter from my sister Elizabeth in which she said she would love to have me call the baby Elizabeth, and my own name, Nan, didn't seem to go as well with Elizabeth as Ann. So Elizabeth Ann it was. Elizabeth Ann Christian it was, and was so written into the records of the Department of Vital Statistics in Trenton, the capital of New Jersey. Afterward, when I said it to myself, I used to think, "Elizabeth Ann Harding! Elizabeth Ann Harding!" And as she lay in my arms in bed I would whisper to her, "Say, you darling (a verbal salutation I so often heard from her father), do you know who your dad is? Oh, wait until he sees you! Wait till you see him, sweetheart!" She would lie there complacently blinking her eyes and working her mouth. It seemed to me as if Harding were written in every twist of her lips.