The Temple: Sacred Poems and Private Ejaculations/Love unknown
¶ Love unknown.
DEare Friend, sit down, the tale is long and sad:And in my faintings I presume your loveWill more complie, then help. A Lord I had,And have, of whom some grounds which may improve,I hold for two lives, and both lives in me.To him I brought a dish of fruit one day,And in the middle plac'd my heart. But he(I sigh to say) Lookt on a servant, who did know his eyeBetter then you know me, or (which is one)Then I my self. The servant instantlyQuitting the fruit, seiz'd on my heart alone,And threw it in a font, wherein did fallA stream of bloud, which issu'd from the sideOf a great rock: I well remember all,And have good cause: there it was dipt and di'd,And washt, and wrung: the very wringing yetEnforceth tears. Your heart was foul, I fear.Indeed 'tis true. I did and do commitMany a fault more then my lease will bear;Yet still askt pardon, and was not deni'd.But you shall heare. After my heart was well,And clean and fair, as I one even-tide(I sigh to tell)Walkt by my self abroad, I saw a largeAnd spacious furnace flaming, and thereonA boyling caldron, round about whose vergeWas in great letters set AFFLICTION.The greatnesse shew'd the owner. So I wentTo fetch a sacrifice out of my fold,Thinking with that which I did thus present,To warm his love, which I did fear grew cold.But as my heart did tender it, the manWho was to take it from me, slipt his hand,And threw my heart into the scalding pan;My heart, that brought it (do you understand?)The offerers heart. Your heart was hard, I fear.Indeed 'tis true. I found a callous matterBegan to spread and to expatiate there:But with a richer drug then scalding water,I bath'd it often, ev'n with holy bloud,Which at a board, while many drunk bare wine,A friend did steal into my cup for good,Ev'n taken inwardly, and most divine To supple hardnesses. But at the lengthOut of the caldron getting, soon I fledUnto my house, where to repair the strengthWhich I had lost, I hasted to my bed.But when I thought to sleep out all these faults(I sigh to speak)I found that some had stuff'd the bed with thoughts,I would say thorns. Deare, could my heart not break,When with my pleasures ev'n my rest was gone?Full well I understood, who had been there:For I had giv'n the key to none, but one:It must be he. Your heart was dull, I fear.Indeed a slack and sleepie state of mindeDid oft possesse me; so that when I pray'd,Though my lips went, my heart did stay behinde.But all my scores were by another paid,Who took the debt upon him. Truly, Friend,For ought I heare, our Master shows to youMore favour then you wot of. Mark the end.The Font did onely what was old renew:The Caldron suppled, what was grown too hard:The Thorns did quicken, what was grown too dull.All did but strive to mend, what you had marr'd.Wherefore be cheer'd, and praise him to the fullEach day, each houre, each moment of the week,Who fain would have you be new, tender, quick.