Yiddish Tales/Eliezer David Rosenthal/Sabbath
SABBATH
Friday evening!
The room has been tidied, the table laid. Two Sabbath loaves have been placed upon it, and covered with a red napkin. At the two ends are two metal candlesticks, and between them two more of earthenware, with candles in them ready to be lighted.
On the small sofa that stands by the stove lies a sick man covered up with a red quilt, from under the quilt appears a pale, emaciated face, with red patches on the dried-up cheeks and a black beard. The sufferer wears a nightcap, which shows part of his black hair and his black earlocks. There is no sign of life in his face, and only a faint one in his great, black eyes.
On a chair by the couch sits a nine-year-old girl with damp locks, which have just been combed out in honor of Sabbath. She is barefoot, dressed only in a shirt and a frock. The child sits swinging her feet, absorbed in what she is doing; but all her movements are gentle and noiseless.
The invalid coughed.
"Kche, kche, kche, kche," came from the sofa.
"What is it, Tate?" asked the little girl, swinging her feet.
The invalid made no reply.
He slowly raised his head with both hands, pulled down the nightcap, and coughed and coughed and coughed, hoarsely at first, then louder, the cough tearing 184 ROSENTHAL
at his sick chest and dinning in the ears. Then he sat up, and went on coughing and clearing his throat, till he had brought up the phlegm.
The little girl continued to be absorbed in her work and to swing her feet, taking very little notice of her sick father.
The invalid smoothed the creases in the cushion, laid his head down again, and closed his eyes. He lay thus for a few minutes, then he said quite quietly :
"Leah!"
"What is it, Tate?" inquired the child again, still swinging her feet.
"Tell . . mother ... it is ... time to ... bless . . . the candles ..."
The little girl never moved from her seat, but shouted through the open door into the shop :
"Mother, shut up shop! Father says it's time for candle-blessing.
"I'm coming, I'm coming," answered her mother from the shop.
She quickly disposed of a few women customers : sold one a kopek's worth of tea, the other, two kopeks' worth of sugar, the third, two tallow candles. Then she closed the shutters and the street door, and came into the room.
"You've drunk the glass of milk?" she inquired of the sick man.
"Yes ... I have . . . drunk it," he replied.
"And you, Leahnyu, daughter," and she turned to the child, "may the evil spirit take you ! Couldn't you put on your shoes without my telling you? Don't you know it's Sabbafh ?" The little girl hung her head, and made no other answer. Her mother went to the table, lighted the candles, covered her face with her hands, and blessed them.
After that she sat down on the seat by the window to take a rest.
It was only on Sabbath that she could rest from her hard work, toiling and worrying as she was the whole week long with all her strength and all her mind. She sat lost in thought. She was remembering past happy days.
She also had known what it is to enjoy life, when her husband was in health, and they had a few hundred rubles. They finished boarding with her parents, they set up a shop, and though he had always been a close frequenter of the house-of-study, a bench-lover, he soon learnt the Torah of commerce. She helped him, and they made a livelihood, and ate their bread in honor. But in course of time some quite new shops were started in the little town, there was great competition, the trade was small, and the gains were smaller, it became necessary to borrow money on interest, on weekly payment, and to pay for goods at once. The interest gradually ate up the capital with the gains. The creditors took what they could lay hands on, and still her husband remained in their debt.
He could not get over this, and fell ill. The whole bundle of trouble fell upon her: the burden of a livelihood, the children, the sick man, everything, everything, on her.
But she did not lose heart. "God will help, he will soon get well, and will surely find some work. God will not desert us," so she reflected, and meantime she was not sitting idle.
The very difficulty of her position roused her courage, and gave her strength. She sold her small store of jewelry, and set up a little shop.
Three years have passed since then.
However it may be, God has not abandoned her, and however bitter and sour the struggle for Parnosseh may have been, she had her bit of bread. Only his health did not return, he grew daily weaker and worse. She glanced at her sick husband, at his pale, emaciated face, and tears fell from her eyes.
During the week she has no time to think how unhappy she is. Parnosseh, housework, attendance on the children and the sick man — these things take up all her time and thought. She is glad when it comes to bedtime, and she can fall, dead tired, onto her bed. But on Sabbath, the day of rest, she has time to think over her hard lot and all her misery and to cry herself out.
"When will there be an end of my troubles and suffering?" she asked herself, and could give no answer whatever to the question beyond despairing tears. She saw no ray of hope lighting her future, only a great, wide, shoreless sea of trouble. It flashed across her:
"When he dies, things will be easier."
But the thought of his death only increased her apprehension. It brought with it before her eyes the dreadfud words: widow, orphans, poor little fatherless children. . . These alarmed her more than her present distress. How can children grow up without a father? Now, even though he's ill, he keeps an eye on them, tells them to say their prayers and to study. Who is to watch over them if he dies?
"Don't punish me, Lord of the World, for my bad thought," she begged with her whole heart. "I will take it upon myself to suffer and trouble for all, only don't let him die, don't let me be called by the bitter name of widow, don't let my children be called orphans!"
He sits upon his couch, his head a little thrown back and leaning against the wall. In one hand he holds a prayer-book — he is receiving the Sabbath into his house. His pale lips scarcely move as he whispers the words before him, and his thoughts are far from the prayer. He knows that he is dangerously ill, he knows what his wife has to suffer and bear, and not only is he powerless to help her, but his illness is her heaviest burden, what with the extra expense incurred on his account and the trouble of looking after him. Besides which, his weakness makes him irritable, and his anger has more than once caused her unmerited pain. He sees and knows it all, and his heart is torn with grief. "Only death can help us," he murmurs, and while his lips repeat the words of the prayer-book, his heart makes one request to God and only one: that God should send kind Death to deliver him from his trouble and misery. Suddenly the door opened and a ten-year-old boy came into the room, in a long Sabbath cloak, with two long earlocks, and a prayer-book under his arm. "A good Sabbath!" said the little boy, with a loud, ringing voice.
It seemed as if he and the holy Sabbath had come into the room together! In one moment the little boy had driven trouble and sadness out of sight, and shed light and consolation round him.
His "good Sabbath !" reached his parents' hearts, awoke there new life and new hopes.
"A good Sabbath!" answered the mother. Her eyes rested on the child's bright face, and her thoughts were no longer melancholy as before, for she saw in his eyes a whole future of happy possibilities.
"A good Sabbath!" echoed the lips of the sick man, and he took a deeper, easier breath. No, he will not die altogether, he will live again after death in the child. He can die in peace, he leaves a Kaddish behind him.